Warning: if you think I'm being sarcastic, I'm not. Maybe exaggerating a bit, but definitely not sarcastic.
I finally worked out what rap makes me want to do to myself. But first, a disclaimer: I recognise some feel not all rap is bad, and I think I actually once came mildly close to semi-liking one rap 'song', but most of what I hear I can't stand. Back to my story. Whenever I heard rap, I used to have this sudden desire to hurt myself because I couldn't stand it, but I couldn't figure out HOW I wanted to hurt myself. All I could think of was a brick wall, but that just wasn't enough. Then today, on the drive home from school today, 'Ride Wit Me' by Nelly (seriously, mate, you got something against the letter 'h'?) came on the radio, and I realised what it made me want to inflict upon myself. Basically it goes like this: rap makes me want to drive a pickaxe into a brick wall and then drive my head into it, thus also smacking my head on the brick wall in the process. I'm serious. That is what I wanted to do while listening to Nelly. That song is so bloody painful. I wanted to jump out of the car, smash the radio, do the above-mentioned painful activity, ANYTHING TO GET AWAY FROM IT. What do people see in that song? It's AWFUL. I can't stand it.