Axver (axver) wrote,
Axver
axver

  • Mood:
  • Music:

HATE

I just made an entry that talked about some important things I'd realised about myself today, but I just lost it. GRR. It was so ... something. So something. So needed. I'm so annoyed I lost it. Oh how stupid I am.

Let's try this again ...

At the leadership training day that I had today, I was prompted to evaluate my character. What I discovered, I did not like. I'm too arrogant, selfish, self-centred, over-ambitious, not kind (apart from to those I like), not forgiving or merciful or loving enough ... so many things wrong with me. I don't like what I see. I can't understand why anyone would like me. I'm loathesome, I really am.

So I need to fix this situation. But how? I'm so lost. I get angry with people, I'm impatient, and I can be too up myself at times. I don't know how to fix it. I try to calm down and bring myself down to earth, but always these feelings override my intentions. Can anyone help at all? I need suggestions, help ... I don't want to remain this loathesome, hate-filled, unlikeable person.
Subscribe

  • (no subject)

    Hello. After such a long absence, I'm really not sure how to begin an entry. I actually haven't been completely absent from LiveJournal - I use the…

  • Bland subject line

    It's funny. The last time I wrote an update, I found it quite enjoyable and it reminded me how much I used to like writing regularly here. So I…

  • How often have I used "I'm not dead yet" as a subject line anyway?

    I think it's about time I made my once-every-couple-of-months entry. A lot has happened since I updated in January. That seems like a very long time…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 24 comments

  • (no subject)

    Hello. After such a long absence, I'm really not sure how to begin an entry. I actually haven't been completely absent from LiveJournal - I use the…

  • Bland subject line

    It's funny. The last time I wrote an update, I found it quite enjoyable and it reminded me how much I used to like writing regularly here. So I…

  • How often have I used "I'm not dead yet" as a subject line anyway?

    I think it's about time I made my once-every-couple-of-months entry. A lot has happened since I updated in January. That seems like a very long time…