Axver (axver) wrote,
Axver
axver

  • Mood:
  • Music:

HATE

I just made an entry that talked about some important things I'd realised about myself today, but I just lost it. GRR. It was so ... something. So something. So needed. I'm so annoyed I lost it. Oh how stupid I am.

Let's try this again ...

At the leadership training day that I had today, I was prompted to evaluate my character. What I discovered, I did not like. I'm too arrogant, selfish, self-centred, over-ambitious, not kind (apart from to those I like), not forgiving or merciful or loving enough ... so many things wrong with me. I don't like what I see. I can't understand why anyone would like me. I'm loathesome, I really am.

So I need to fix this situation. But how? I'm so lost. I get angry with people, I'm impatient, and I can be too up myself at times. I don't know how to fix it. I try to calm down and bring myself down to earth, but always these feelings override my intentions. Can anyone help at all? I need suggestions, help ... I don't want to remain this loathesome, hate-filled, unlikeable person.
Subscribe

  • You'd think I'd forgotten about this or something!

    Well, come June this year I'll have been on LiveJournal for a decade. That's pretty scary. Not that I've updated much over the last…

  • 2011

    Best year ever. PS Damn straight this is Axver, returning from the blogging wilderness after not posting anything since March. I guess after many…

  • A win for the ages and other cricket rantings

    Holy fucking shit, the Irish knocked off England in the cricket! Forget when they turfed out the hopeless Pakistan in 2007; this is something else.…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 24 comments

  • You'd think I'd forgotten about this or something!

    Well, come June this year I'll have been on LiveJournal for a decade. That's pretty scary. Not that I've updated much over the last…

  • 2011

    Best year ever. PS Damn straight this is Axver, returning from the blogging wilderness after not posting anything since March. I guess after many…

  • A win for the ages and other cricket rantings

    Holy fucking shit, the Irish knocked off England in the cricket! Forget when they turfed out the hopeless Pakistan in 2007; this is something else.…