I just hate feeling so empty and lonely. My friends/acquiantances all seem to be so happy with all their friendships or their girlfriends or whatever. I'm so bloody jealous at some of them, with their relationships. They seem so freaking happy and it makes me think "Why can't I have that?" I barely even know any of the girls at my school well at all, I'm not getting into an online 'relationship' again, and beyond school and the Internet, I have no life. Wow, I am a loner. I can see myself ending up as a nothing. Maybe a rich nothing, but still a nothing.
I'm too bleak at times. I try to be an optimist, but sometimes I can't help being pessimistic. Grr. And I've just lost the urge to rant.