Axver (axver) wrote,

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Some more of my thoughts

Typing really is a release for me. I think I'm coming to terms with stuff. Anyhow, here's something I just posted on some thread in Author's Corner;

"No, it is not you who should be apologising, but me. I have probably reacted too violently and offended people, and I'm sorry, but I just don't know what do to or think or say, and yelling is a quick release of emotion. Maybe it creates more anger when less-than-pleasant responses come back, but it's a quick release nonetheless and burns up some quick emotion. I just ... hurt, too much ... YTF was one of a kind. I never knew it meant so much to me until now, when it's GONE.

I hate this ... one minute I'm in mourning, next I'm angry, and next I'm feeling some emotion that has no name. I guess everyone's going through these emotions. I can't believe the boards are actually going. I don't understand why and I just can't believe it. I don't understand why anyone would even want to threaten what we have here. It just doesn't compute.

I'm moving on, yes. But when YTF was deleted, a large chunk of me was ripped out, too, and more will go when this entire place is deleted at 2am on the 1st my time. Now I better be going to bed. It's 4:10am here. I can't sleep, that's why I'm on. I just ... I'm sorry, I'm rambling, I'll shut up."

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