December 15th, 2003

Amak Axver

I had a really clever subject for this, and now I've forgotten it

I wrote this up last night after I'd spent about thirty minutes reading.

The last 24 hours have been incredible. I’ve been on the most incredible emotional rollercoaster I’ve been on in quite a while. Right now, I think I’m going through a series of loop-the-loops or something equally crazy like that, because … wow, so many feelings, so many words I need to get down on paper. It’s quite incredible.

Lately, I’ve begun to have these feelings. Bono’s partly to blame. Being the fanatic I am, I read all these articles about U2, and Bono is always in the news (on a side note, hooray, Microsoft Word recognises Bono as a word!) for something about Africa. Every article makes my heart break. I’ve been reading I John today, and WOW. It talks about how, by our faith, we should practice good, that our faith is manifested in deed, and I see that in Bono, in his incredible work for Africa, but do I see it here, in Western culture? Do I see us practicing good, being selfless, helping the unfortunate, giving without asking for a reward, helping because people need to be helped? Do I see ANY of that? Almost not at all, and it rips my heart out. I can barely read about Africa any more. It just hurts too much. I need to go there, I really do – I can’t just sit by and read about these people, I feel like I have to DO something, that I need to HELP because … it’s all I can do.

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Let’s stop patching up walls. Let’s save some lives for a change.

Dear God,

Help. I know we could use some.

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Amak Axver

More ramblings for today

I've never cried at a song before but 40 from 2 May 85 has brought me the closest I've ever been to shedding a tear. I think I'm in love with Bono's voice. *melts into a pool of pure fanladishness* This is like ... the best thing. Anyone want a copy? It's an epic 8:29 long version. Nearly as long as the very epic 12:03 rendition of Bad from the same concert that just rocks my socks off. Collapse )

Can anyone tell me who originally sung "Take me to the river/Wash me in the water"? I'm sure I've heard multiple versions of it, and Bono quotes it in Bad. Did Talking Heads do it originally?

So they caught Saddam. This proves me right, of course, and lends weight to my pro-war case, shuts up anti-war morons like Patrick (even if, ironically enough, I'm turning pacifist at the moment), and ... is good. But really, I feel quite apathetic. I'm interested, but there's this big "SO WHAT?" hanging over it. Honestly, I don't think much is going to change, or at least not for the bad. I think all these fears about terrorism are completely unfounded. Any of you who think they do have a strong base, I highly urge you to revise your history: Slobodan Milosevic and Kosovo would make a good starting point. I doubt the danger to your average Westerner will increase one bit, not even for those of you poor sods in America. I feel perfectly comfortable sleeping at night, and so should you. A despot has been caught, a country has been freed from tyranny, and whatever al-Qaeda or Moronic Alternate Organisation X does would've happened anyway. Look at September 11. What could possibly be termed the biggest terrorist attack in history (though not in my opinion, and I'm NOT referring to Hiroshima or Nagasaki here as worse like some do, because I term those as legitimate acts of war) occurred after ... what? No ruthless dictator had been caught. No new war had been declared. No defamation of Islam resulting in a fatwa had been done by the American government. This attack was completely unprovoked.

These terror organisations do not work how we expect them to work. When someone bombs us, we want to bomb the crap out of them straight away and make sure the whole world knows it. They build up attacks. They don't do rash strikes. They strike when they're good and ready, not when they're pissed off. It's like they've realised something we seem to consistently miss: anger clouds judgement. Why is it we keep on missing this? Is it too obvious or something?

But really, I'm wallowing in apathy. Saddam was caught. Hooray. The sun will rise tomorrow. There will not be a terrorist attack, or at least not on Western soil. Life, remarkably, will go on.

Sod, I didn't go do exercise today. Time just got ahead of me, and I'm quite annoyed at myself. That was bad of me. I really need to get fit.

I'm still torn up about this helping people issue that I posted about earlier. It's getting to me more and more: I don't see how so many people can just sit aside while thousands die. I can't tolerate the injustice of it all: while we make mountains out of molehills, things are just falling apart in the Third World, and some people couldn't care less. These people are our fellow human beings. Don't make a distinction between them and us. Don't say we should help our nation first. Forget national boundaries - they're a pile of dung and all they do is create animosity and feelings that aren't necessary. People in Africa are just as human as you and me, and I don't see why we should treat our race as more important than theirs. We talk about helping our poor, but half the time, that's a joke. I've lived below the poverty line myself for a good few years, and yet I still had shelter, food, running clean water, sewage, and a bit of money in my pocket. These people in Africa have NOTHING. We should help at home, yes, but which is more important? Giving a Christmas cake to the family that only has some TV dinners for their Christmas meal, or giving food, ANY food, to the five year old boy who has absolutely NONE? I know which I'd pick.

We should all be grateful that we're blessed enough to live in the Western world. Outside Australia, outside New Zealand, outside America, outside other Western nations ... it sounds like hell, and my heart breaks for them.

I can now see why it's so much easier not to care.
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