October 7th, 2003

Amak Axver

Today. Oh yes, I have mastered the art of thrilling subjects, haven't I?

The abridged version of today: I woke up. I went to school. I came home.

The longer version ...

Woke up at 6:50am - fifty minutes LATER than I've gotten up in recent days - to the sounds of Jimmy Eat World. No matter how much I like Jimmy Eat World, I was not impressed. Why not? Because I'm used to waking up to U2's Under A Blood Red Sky. I can tell the time by it, and I know just how many songs I can let play before I actually need to get up to avoid being late. But with Jimmy Eat World, I wouldn't have a clue, so I dragged myself out of bed and got ready for school. No hassles there, apart from that I couldn't find any gel to spike my hair with.

School ...
Period one, Study: totally pointless because, being the first class of term, I had nothing to study for. So I checked out what CDs the Gold Coast City Library Service has on their website, and found them to have a poor range. Then I went on the Soon MB. Funny story behind this. I tried to go to my favourite U2 website, www.interference.com, beforehand, and couldn't. Why not? Because it's a messageboard, and my school's filtering policy has blocked them. Or so the message I got said. Being a bit daring, I went to the Soon website, and tried to get on the MB, not liking my chances. I was very shocked when I signed on and it actually worked! That was good.

Period two, Geography: boring.

Period three, German: boring. I have a German writing exam on Monday. GRR.

Period four, English: mildly interesting. For a change, we get to choose a book to read. This is FANTASTIC. We have NEVER been able to choose before. It rarely happens here. We've been given suggestions and what we're to read should be relevant to the unit ... so I'm going to try to come up with some way that the entire Hitch-Hikers series is relevant! I'll give the list of recommended books later.

Period five, SOR: interesting, as per usual. I've come up with a very good idea for my assignment. Even involves using U2 quotes.

Period six, Maths B: dull. Got my results back from last term's exams. Hardly impressed, and I feel hard-done-by, but I passed. Unlike Pat and Sam, the poor guys.

Then I went to come home. The gridlock in the school car park was terrible. It took my mother about ten minutes to get up the driveway to the car park. It was absolute insanity. Then the gridlock just suddenly cleared within a very short space of time and Mum appeared.

This week is not shaping up to be a good week. The Debating Co-ordinator took a photo of me for the yearbook, and it was at this point that she informed me I have a Modern History exam on Thursday. GRR. It's a response to stimulus exam, which you supposedly cannot study for, but it's still an exam. I also have a Junior Council meeting on Thursday, which I don't want to go to. I haven't been for five months, and that might raise some issues. Hope not.

So, this coming week;

Wednesday: sixth anniversary of my move to Australia, will hopefully still be unwell because otherwise I'll be spending an entirely pointless day at school.

Thursday: Junior Council and Modern History exam. Please no.

Friday: Rugby World Cup starts! EEEEEE! Go Argentina, THUMP Australia! Haha, you can tell I'm a Kiwi: I'll go for any team playing against Australia. Argentina is generally quite underrated, but I doubt they'll win. If they do, it will be quite an upset.

Monday next week: German writing exam. I'm going to have to do heaps of study for this. Lots of new stuff to learn.

School has helped ease my pain with the lack-of-U2-ness. But still, it's very weird waking up to something other than U2 and I don't like it. It's not right. And now ... I'm listening to Pink Floyd, and was listening to Matchbox Twenty earlier, and I'm wondering where U2 is. Listening to U2 is second nature to me. It's just this normal thing that's there, and I sometimes don't even notice it at the time, but when it's gone, it's quite noticeable.

Anyhow, M*A*S*H time. The episode yesterday was very moving. I'm convinced this is the best show of all time.
  • Current Music
    'Another Brick In The Wall (Part Two)' by Pink Floyd
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Do I care? No.

Seems like this is becoming the popular topic. Anyhow, Aly was mentioning how she doesn't post some stuff because other people may read it. Personally, I have been worried about people finding my Journal. At present, as far as I know, no-one I know who I don't want to know about this actually knows about it (that was a terribly constructed sentence). In all honesty, there aren't many people who I don't want to find this. Mainly some members of my family, and definitely my father. But the point is ... I don't care if they do find it. I may not like it if they do, but in all honesty, I don't care in the slightest. They could find it. It might make them mad. But I simply don't care. They can't stop me using it, Mum would most likely be cool with it, and I have this apathetic attitude towards people finding out what I'm not happy about in relation to them. Odds are they know that anyway. If you've pissed me off, you should know. I don't just hold feelings inside and let them out elsewhere. People I don't like know that I don't like them and wish they'd go zark off the side of a cliff.

I don't care in the slightest if anyone finds this and gets offended by it. I post what I like here, because, after all, it is MY LiveJournal, and if someone decides they don't like it, that's too bloody bad for them. And if anyone decides they don't want to read anything I post here - i.e. about my faith - then don't read it. Just skip over it. I understand some people aren't interested when I talk about my faith and would rather not read it, and I'm not offended in the slightest if anyone skips it because when I was an atheist, I would've done just that.

I love being apathetic about this ... only thing is, I don't want to slip any further into apathy. I've done that before, and I've found it not to be good. I've become quite distant from most people apart from my close friends ... and this isn't good for me. I'm a very shy person and can be quite nervous about meeting new people or going places where no-one I know is, but at the same time, I love to be around people I know and love. Some people at school think I'm quite a cold person - 'heartless' and 'unfeeling' are accusations I've had thrown my way before - but inside, I'm not; I love to ... well, love. So being apathetic rather goes against who I naturally am.

Different topic now.

Annual speech competition I usually compete in is coming up soon. Topics to choose from are;

Reality TV
Australian Made
The Other Side
Winning Ways
Rich And Poor
The Funny Side
The Last Laugh
Mind Games

I'm not sure which to do. I could do a humorous speech on Winning Ways, and I loathe most Reality TV so I could probably speak quite passionately on that topic, but I'm really not sure. I've competed twice in the past - last year I was too ill on the day. 2000, I did a humorous piece about Surviving School, with which I nearly won (and when I performed it for the grade, had them in stitches). 2001, I did a serious piece on why the Gold Coast needed a tramway and got knocked out in the semi-finals (considering I was an emotional wreck at the time, I performed very below standard and nearly didn't go). Personally, I prefer presenting entertaining, humorous pieces because the audience enjoys them, so I may go for something funny along the lines of Winning Ways.

"How to win, using the winning ways of the experts. The three primary methods are cheating, bribery, and fixing the results ..."
  • Current Music
    'Shine On You Crazy Diamond' by Pink Floyd
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The list I forgot ...

I forgot to post the list of books we were given as reading recommendations for English. To recap, we are actually allowed to choose the book we want to read for English this term, something I never thought would happen. We have to choose a book that is in some way relevant to our assessment task, and we have been given a list of suggestions. Our task is to write a short story which "explores one or more of the discourses associated with growing up, coming of age, and rites of passage." We are to read an appropriate book - fiction or non-fiction - and it should deal with what our task is and be well written. We are advised that material essentially written for young children such as Harry Potter is to be avoided.

Anyhow, here's the list. I'm copying it exactly as written down - some books don't appear to be credited. Asterisks signify that whoever compiled the list highly recommends them. I would like to hear some other thoughts on this.


Great Expectations* - Charles Dickens
To Kill A Mockingbird - Harper Lee (Personally, I've been interested in reading this for a while so I may read it anyway)
Fly Away Peter - David Malouf
Looking For Alibrandi - Melina Marchetta
Saving Francesca - Melin Marchetta
The Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood** - Rebecca Wells
Cry, The Beloved Country - Alan Paton
My Brilliant Career
The Chosen* - Chaim Potok
My Name Is Asher Lev* - Chaim Potok
My Brother Jack - George Johnston
That Eye The Sky - Tim Winton
Careful, He Might Hear You
A Lesson Before Dying - Ernest J. Gaines
Walking Naked*
Pride And Prejudice - Jane Austen
Emma - Jane Austen
Sense And Sensibility - Jane Austen
Mansfield Park - Jane Austen

The Colour Of Water* - James McBride
Wild Swans* - Jung Chang
Falling Leaves - Adeline Yen Mah
Unreliable Memoirs - Clive James
Angela's Ashes - Frank McCourt
Life Is So Good* - George Dawson
My Place - Sally Morgan
Coonardoo - Cath Pritchard
The Colours Of The Mountain* - Da Chen
Boy and Going Solo - Roald Dahl

So, any thoughts? Anything else you'd recommend?
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    'Orange Crush' by REM
Amak Axver

Quiz madness

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Here's a great quote that explains what I've been trying to say for a long time. It's thanks to BonoVoxSupastar, a poster at a U2 messageboard I go to. Raises some good points about 'Christian music'.

"This is one of the many reasons I love U2, the spirituality. I think U2 has something that many "Christian Bands" lack. When signed under a Christian label theres certain songs you can't write. This always bugged me. You can't question like Bono does so often, you could never write a song like I Still Haven't Found, Wake Up Dead Man, or even Wanderer. You could never write a song like Running to Stand Still, for that would imply you knew someone who used heroin...the rules are so strange. That's why so many Christian band's song sound like remakes of "Jesus Loves Me" because you're limited to one subject. I don't listen to much contemporary Chistian music these days because it's all the same and the message doesn't seem real anymore, it's too simple. I think a non-believer would be more turned on to God though U2's music than any Christian band out there. I think U2 paints a much more realistic picture."
  • Current Music
    'Pushing Me Away' by Linkin Park (Heh, sorry Fritz)