|GRRRRR *smashes something*
||[10 September 2003|08:01 pm]
|||||Stressed and angry||]|
|||||'The Electric Co, (UABRS)' by U2||]|
I'm shaking, and not just because I took my asthma medication. (I often shake after taking my asthma medication, and I needed to today) We got our phone bill back ... and oh my Zooropa, it appears that the phone company has decided to charge us for every fucking time I attempt to connect to the Internet. Not just the calls that actually get through, BUT EVERY FUCKING ATTEMPT! I did the maths and the next phone bill is going to be worse than this one. I thought they only charged for SUCCESSFUL calls, calls that actually connect. I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I'm shaking, I literally am. And it's their fault. If they hadn't decided to modify and change the network, I would still be accessing the local Gold Coast network and life would be sweet. The useless fucks. I don't know what Mum will do ... either I'll be unable to get online much (although that won't change the bill), she'll just pay up, or I'll contribute. This pisses me off so much. We don't have the money to pay for so many fucking attempts.
This is just what I need. Just what I fucking need. Another thing to make me worried. I already have enough to worry about. What am I going to do? I can't hide the bills from Mum, I can't change the fact that I had to dial up so many times, through no fault of my own, and she DID say I could go online ... but ... GRR. As if matters weren't bad enough, and as if I didn't have to do enough study as it is, I'm going to have to do my Modern History exam on Tuesday next week. Shit, shit, shit. I barely know ANYTHING. I don't have the time or the ability to learn all that stuff in the next six days. It's a bloody impossibility. I'm going to plead with my teacher to get more time. I need it.
Tomorrow is Maths C. I'm feeling slightly confident at the moment. I think I know most of the stuff I need to know. I can multiply, rotate, and reflect matrices, I can use the Gauss-Jordan method, I can solve simultaneous matrices using matrix inverses, I can find matrix inverses, I can do Transition matrices, and I think I can do Leslie matrices. I hope I go well. I need to.
Friday is Maths B. This is completely unfair. All the other Maths B classes don't have to do their tests until Monday next week, so we're going to petition to have ours later as well. I damn well hope it works. Otherwise, I don't know how well I'll do. I can do all the quadratics stuff - finding turning points, working out equations, finding the x intercepts, and stuff like that is pretty easy - and probability is so dead easy it's not funny (although I probably need to learn my definitions), but exponentials and logarithms? Thanks to an hour long tutorial this afternoon me, Sam, and Patrick had with Johnno (who happens to also be my SOR teacher), I feel I now have a grasp on that stuff, but not enough of one. I learnt more in that single hour than I learnt in Capper's class ALL FLAMING TERM!
And German ... shit, I better write out some stuff for my teacher to check tomorrow, and I have heaps to memorise by next week. I'm overloaded with stuff to remember. It's bad enough having to study, but having to shovel a whole heap of completely foreign, completely new stuff into my brain is even worse. I thought revision meant going over stuff we'd already done in class during the term, but obviously not. GRRR. I have a fantastic memory, but it has its limits and it can't just remember every single thing I read.
In other news, Samudra, the brains behind the Bali bombing, has been sentenced to death in Indonesia. Bloody good decision.
I need a new computer with a new modem. NOW. I also need a lot of money to fall straight into my hands to cover the stupid bloody phone bill. And I also need to suddenly remember a lot of things. I can't wait for the holidays ... then I'll only have the phone bill to worry about.