August 10th, 2003

Amak Axver

w00t.

The All Blacks won. I just looked up the results online, and we won by a low margin of 19-11. What the Zooropa? We thumped South Africa 52-16 and then Australia 50-21, but now we can only beat South Africa by eight? What's happened? Might've had something to do with it being in Dunedin in the freezing cold (it'd be about 5C (about 35F I think) if they're lucky), and the referee doesn't seem to be all that great.

New Zealand - 19
Try: Rokocoko
Conversion: Spencer (1 from 1)
Penalty kicks: Spencer (4 from 5)

South Africa - 11
Try: Bands
Conversions: 0 from 1 by Koen
Penalty kicks: Koen (2 from 5)

GO THE ALL BLACKS!

The unconvincing nature of this has me worried, though ... have we peaked too early?
  • Current Music
    Rugby's on TV (although it's pointless watching now ...)
Amak Axver

My response to an e-mail from the ZBoard idiots

I'm typing out a more diplomatic and polite reply to this, but here's my real thoughts ... (There's no notice of confidentiality, and, as one of the people in the communication, I feel I can post this)

Hey Andre,

Who gave you permission to call me by my first name? Andre is for friends. Until I tell you otherwise, it's AXVER to you.

I have been watching some of your interaction on the boards and find it interesting that you are so hacked off.

Oh, so it's interesting? Then again, you're part of the Administration, so you probably don't see the flaws that I'm complaining about ...

I believe in being able to speak your mind and address issues, but your approach to it.. I don't get.

Don't be a hypocrite. If you believed in freedom of speech, you wouldn't delete threads that disagree with you or delete debates when they get passionate. And what don't you get about my approach? I say what I think and I don't sugarcoat it. That's the way it should be.

If I only looked at the words you posted on the boards I would in no way think you loved God or anyone else for that matter.

So now you choose to judge me? Mate, I wish you'd been to YTF. You'd have probably decided we were a bunch of heathens. And seriously, are you blind? Even if my words don't show any love for God or most others (which is false in the first place), my words DO show love for U2.

There was nothing kind or gentle or humble or encouraging.. all scriptural expressions of our relationship with Christ.

What the Popmart? Since when did everything have to be kind, gentle, humble, or encouraging?

I went to your web site and saw some good stuff..

Thank you, but don't try to curry favour with (most likely empty) compliments.

but why the anger.

Why the lack of question marks?

No one here at ZJAM is your enemy.

Maybe not, but you do a lovely job of pissing me off.

We try hard to allow people to express what they feel but
for many reasons there are times when we need to, and yes it is our discretion based on what we think is uplifting, delete posts that are crude or unnecessary.


So you delete stuff just because it's not uplifting? Not everything in the world is uplifting, Babyface. Wake up to yourself. That comment made you sound like a real moron. I disagree with the practice of "we can delete stuff at our own discretion". Such a statement should NEVER be written into an MB's TOS because it allows for the possibility of the administration becoming totalitarian in nature. All governments should have their power limited. If something bad happens and it's not against the TOS, that's just too bad. You'll have to modify the TOS to make such behaviour against the rules in future.

I understand that can be frustrating.. welcome to my world..

Stop using two full stops. THAT is frustrating. And what does your world have anything to do with this? Don't bring yourself into the matter. You've already made a simple issue complex enough.

To be honest, we are always looking for ways to do things better.. provide a place where people can share that is encouraging..

Look, I told you before that not everything in life is encouraging. If you're going to get rid of stuff just because it's not uplifting, that's truly sad.

You have a lot of passion, it would be great if that was used to build up and not tear down.

"He saw the hands that build ... yeah, the hands that build ... could also pull down ... even the hands of love ..." - U2, Exit

Challenge us in a way that doesn't immediately cause people to duck the darts you are throwing.


I'm not throwing any darts. Issuing challenges, demanding answers, and pointing out facts and fallacies, but not throwing darts.

We listen whether you think so or not..

Ha. Prove it. People are unhappy about discussion of secular music being banned and are demanding a vote, but you folks haven't said a thing. Did somebody say hypocritical liar?

we make mistakes..

Now that's what I call an understatement.

but we do listen and try.

Doesn't seem like it to me.

I realize I just may have hacked you off even more

Pretty much. Although I do find all this quite amusing.

but I wanted to at least try to explain and see if you are more than your words.

More than my words? What the MacPhisto are you on about? I was rarely abusive or derogatory, I simply spoke my mind.

Feel free to e-mail me back and ream me out.. or maybe try to work with us.
Either way I'm here.


I'm actually going to try diplomacy and see where I can get to. I'll see if I can bring about positive change. It's unlikely, but I've had such a great day I'm prepared to try anything.

By the way, you send me such a nice typically condescending Christian e-mail, and yet you still ban me? I think this is rather ludicrous. You people are crazy. I think the ink from those crappy Bible translations you use (and they're truly crappy ones) has soaked into your skin, gone to your head, and messed with your brain.

Good bob, these people are whacked.
  • Current Music
    Rugby is still on
Amak Axver

What I forgot

And what I didn't realise earlier - but should've - is that this victory over South Africa by NZ in the rugby means that they RETAIN THE TRI-NATIONS TROPHY! w00t. Now all we need to do is defeat Australia next Saturday and we'll get OUR Bledisloe Cup back. The Australians have had it in their possession for five years, the thieving criminals. It's OURS. We once held it for THIRTY years. Give it back, you thieving Australians.

By the way, seeing this is delayed coverage on TV and this happened yesterday, retaining the Tri-Nations counts as my "Great event seven".

And I just downloaded the 2002 Oscars performance of The Hands That Built America by U2, and I forgot how good this was. Wow, I've wasted about 40mb of download today. Go me. For once I had download to waste. Better be careful today and tomorrow, although I most likely won't blow my limit.

Ah, lovely songs ...
  • Current Music
    'The Hands That Built America (Oscars 2002 live)' by U2
Amak Axver

A very amusing conversation with Lily. She's so deluded.

Seeing she's blocked my normal account, I signed onto my old account and, lo and behold, she was online (thanks Sam for telling me, even though you'll probably never read this). I had a very amusing conversation with her. Enjoy.

And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am [Me] says:
Hello there.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
So many things to discuss ... so little time. To begin, How is life?
Well behaved women rarely make history. [Liza] says:
Why are you doing this? I know you hate me... why seek me out?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Because I would like to ask/discuss a thing or two.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
I knew you wouldn't reply to an e-mail and I was banned from the ZBoard, so what else was I to do but use my old account?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
What do you want?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Firstly, why did you lie? You went to my LJ when you expressly told me you wouldn't.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I did that after Liz told me I couldn't talk to you anymore. I still loved you then, and I couldn't stand the thought of not having you in my life. I'm glad I read it... I'd still be head-over-heels for you, if I hadn't!
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Haha, fascinating. Secondly, you told me you couldn't call me evil, but something Sarah put in her LJ proves the opposite.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I could after I read that blasted journal.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Indeed, from a conversation Sarah put up, I counted at least eleven lies. I'd advise you go find that in her Journal - www.livejournal.com/users/saintcheney and see my reply.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Oh yes, what about that blasted Journal? Do tell me more.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You've already established the fact that I'm a liar. Why don't you just leave me the hell alone? Why do you keep getting your friends to annoy me? Don't you understand that I can't stand you?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
I didn't get any of them to talk to you. They did because they wanted to. I never asked them to. Don't make assumptions that aren't true.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
How did they get my address?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And you can't stand me? Well, now we're equal. I'd love to know just how many things were lies, considering what I've uncovered lately.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Don't ask me.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Ask them.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Nothing I told you while we were dating was a lie. My Mom is dead. My Grandpa is about to die. I was mollested by SEVERAL members of my family... I didn't even tell you about everyone who did that crap to me. I have been suicidal. I didn't lie about anything at all while we dated. Even after we stopped dating, and I told you about some of my problems, I wasn't lying. Timmy did drown.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
All of my "sob, attention-whoreish stories" were true.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Believe it or not, I did believe most of that.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
The thing is, the way you used them, that brought up the "attention whore" label. Sarah established that in the conversation, I believe.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I didn't tell you half of the crap that I go through every day. You think I used it all to get attention, but if I really wanted attention, I would have told you everything.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Why do I doubt that?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Because you believe everything I say is a lie, perhaps? I believe the same about you, too. You're just as much of a liar as I am.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Prove that I'm a liar.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You lied to me before we dated, and said you didn't like me. You lied the day after I met you and said you had to do something you'd planned months in advance, when you really only had to study drama.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
I did have something planned! A freaking important family function!
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And it did happen! I just didn't get online that night to mention it in my LJ.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And before we dated ... you know full well why I did that, so don't try to use it against me.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You lied and said you needed to be "firm" with me, because you were afraid I'd try to get back together with you, when we met. I told you WEEKS before that, that although I loved you, I'd never date you again. You were just to egotistical to admit that to all of your "friends", so you made me out to be some obseesive female who wanted nothing more than to be with you forever.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
*too egotistical
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
What the Popheart are you going on about? Make sense, girl.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You said in your journal that you were going to have to be "firm" with me when we met, because I thought our meeting would re-establish our relationship. You and I both know that's a lie.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
I thought I'd need to be firm with you over some issues, like you still liking me. Thankfully, such a scenario did not eventuate.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You KNEW it wasn't going to! I told you I wouldn't date you, and then I promised you I wouldn't even mention our relationship!
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
See, you make too many false assumptions about me. You're creating weird, whacky ideas and trying to place them upon me when I never had such ideas.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Actually, I did think there might be some issues I'd need to be firm about. Don't try to tell me what I thought.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Please tell me that this is all you wanted to discuss me with, because frankly, talking to you makes me ill.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
*with me
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Why does talking to me make you ill?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I'm beyond upset right now, and I've been sick for quite some time now. This isn't helping me.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Honestly, talking to you is rather amusing for me, considering all the false assumptions you've made and the false thoughts you've tried to put in my head.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Babyface, a conversation cannot make you more or less ill.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Haha... you even talk like Obi now! Liz told me that you were going to be like her MiniMe, but I didn't think so... I thought you were too egotistical for that. Then lo and behold, you become just like her!
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Become just like her? I'm not trying to become a Sarah clone or anything like that. You're talking nonsense.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Get your head out of the mud for a second.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And do explain, how am I becoming a "MiniMe" of Sarah?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I'm not the one with my head in the mud, dear. You haven't been your own person in quite some time. If I liked you at all, I might feel sorry for you, but fortunately for me, I don't. I think it's all quite funny.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Haven't been my own person in quite some time? Achtung! Are you on crack or something? You're not making a terrible lot of sense.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
You're just unhappy that I realised the people at YTF were right and changed my ways. You wanted me to remain their enemy. You didn't want me to be liked by any of them but critical of them, just to satisfy your own hatred of them.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I never hated them. I still don't. I dislike them yes, but I don't hate them.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Fine, "your own dislike of them." No need to get into pedantical issues that are irrelevant. Answer what I said instead of bringing up stupid pedantical issues.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
I'm very happy that you realized they were "right". I also realized that my friends were right. The truth is a good thing.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Your friends? What friends?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And the truth is a good thing. Unfortunately, you seem to be oblivious to it at times or just choose to ignore or reject it.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Brian, Alex, Missina, Kathleen, Katie, Noah, Ryan, Adam, Aaron... I could go on.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Oh, people at the ZBoard? The majority of people there are morons.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You just don't like them because they don't like you.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
They needed a good dose of YTF.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Again, you make another false assumption. Stop it; it makes you look very stupid.
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
Are you done now? Is this all you needed to discuss with me?
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
I find it fascinating how you're trying to get rid of me.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Am I Satan incarnate or something?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
You should take a hint, Einstein. I DO NOT LIKE YOU. I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
Well that's just too bad for you, isn't it?
Well behaved women rarely make history. says:
No, it's too bad for you. Good bye.
And so I gave that man directions, even though I didn't know the way, because that's the kinda man I am says:
And, answer me: am I Satan incarnate or something?
(At this point she went offline/blocked me)
  • Current Music
    'Where The Streets Have No Name (Live)' by U2
Amak Axver

Internet troubles

Folks, I've been having some trouble connecting to the Internet lately, so if I'm not on much lately, that's why. I'm not allowed on MBs at school but I'll try to sneak on anyhow. I don't know if LJ is blocked. If I go to any MBs from school, they will be;

Soon MB (www.soon-thebook.com/bulletinboard)
RPG Central (http://com3.akheva.com/brpgcentral)

Also, I may turn up at LBMB Left Us Behind if I can remember the URL and the MB on www.interference.com, although I don't post a terrible lot on there.

Hopefully in a week or two I'll have this sorted out. But if I'm not on much lately, don't worry. I'll miss you all, that's for sure.
  • Current Music
    The Mole's on TV
Amak Axver

An entry

Today: awful day. Don't want to talk about it much. Crappy Internet. Nearly gave up my faith then came to some realisations. Struggled with some stuff. Yes.

Tomorrow: should be boring. I thought I had a debate - that we went on to the next round whether we won or lost - but the competition is a knock-out, so thus I do not have a debate considering last week's loss.

Tuesday: I'm on the Gold Coast City Junior Council and I have a meeting in the morning. I've missed the last three meetings due to prior commitments, and the venue for Junior Council has now been changed, so I have utterly no idea where to go! Uh-oh ...

And also this means I'll miss Maths C. Grr, I really wanted to go to Maths C on Tuesday morning. We're learning important (and interesting) stuff. On Friday, we had a fire drill during the middle of the lesson, so that disrupted learning about how to solve simultaneous equations using matrix inverses, and we were going to clarify a few things on Tuesday ... I'm peeved I'll miss it. But I guess I need to go to Junior Council.

I'm also going to get into trading U2 concerts. This is a very cool development and rather excites me.
  • Current Music
    'I Threw A Brick Through A Window (Bootleg)' by U2