Axver (axver) wrote,

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So I've lost it and am really insane after all

I'm angry. I have been for a while. But I don't know what at. BUT I'M SO FRIGGING PISSED OFF AND EVERYTHING FRIGGING PISSES ME OFF. I don't understand it. But things that shouldn't annoy me are annoying me, and with every day it's getting more and more, and I'm afraid I'm going to lash out at someone I like, nafo;whauit43097u89ibesgmnb snmiOIRWQ44VGNJAhthiUHBJWANAJKLEHlHGAUKL. Ahem.

What the hell is wrong with me? I'm not calm. I don't know why. Little things are pissing me off. Big things are pissing me off. I try to remain calm and that pisses me off even more. I just wish everyone was like me, then we'd have no reason to disagree and all would be perfect. There'd be no more morons, and I'd love it. I'm convinced the human race is stupid. I can't stand most people, particularly popular people, teenyboppers, surfers, and u-users. I'm a stereotypical bastard but I don't care. Find some intelligence, don't do stupid stuff, and let me be calm.

Explain why I'm not calm. That's what I want. Why am I struggling to keep my composure? For all of last term I restrained myself very successfully. Life was good. There were few outbursts, only on rare occasions did I turn around and call someone an idiot or have a confrontation, it was nice.

I just want nice people. I'm a nice person if I'm allowed to be. I don't know what I want. I'm confused and this sounds stupid but ICK. I just want to break down and cry ... with someone, someone I like, someone I love and care for. I want someone to help me, someone I trust, someone who's always right and I can rely on, someone who tells the truth and knows what's what and why. Someone who can teach me how to do things, where to go, what to do, so that things make sense and work.

Life scares me.

Wibble and quiver.

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