Axver (axver) wrote,

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Do I care? No.

Seems like this is becoming the popular topic. Anyhow, Aly was mentioning how she doesn't post some stuff because other people may read it. Personally, I have been worried about people finding my Journal. At present, as far as I know, no-one I know who I don't want to know about this actually knows about it (that was a terribly constructed sentence). In all honesty, there aren't many people who I don't want to find this. Mainly some members of my family, and definitely my father. But the point is ... I don't care if they do find it. I may not like it if they do, but in all honesty, I don't care in the slightest. They could find it. It might make them mad. But I simply don't care. They can't stop me using it, Mum would most likely be cool with it, and I have this apathetic attitude towards people finding out what I'm not happy about in relation to them. Odds are they know that anyway. If you've pissed me off, you should know. I don't just hold feelings inside and let them out elsewhere. People I don't like know that I don't like them and wish they'd go zark off the side of a cliff.

I don't care in the slightest if anyone finds this and gets offended by it. I post what I like here, because, after all, it is MY LiveJournal, and if someone decides they don't like it, that's too bloody bad for them. And if anyone decides they don't want to read anything I post here - i.e. about my faith - then don't read it. Just skip over it. I understand some people aren't interested when I talk about my faith and would rather not read it, and I'm not offended in the slightest if anyone skips it because when I was an atheist, I would've done just that.

I love being apathetic about this ... only thing is, I don't want to slip any further into apathy. I've done that before, and I've found it not to be good. I've become quite distant from most people apart from my close friends ... and this isn't good for me. I'm a very shy person and can be quite nervous about meeting new people or going places where no-one I know is, but at the same time, I love to be around people I know and love. Some people at school think I'm quite a cold person - 'heartless' and 'unfeeling' are accusations I've had thrown my way before - but inside, I'm not; I love to ... well, love. So being apathetic rather goes against who I naturally am.

Different topic now.

Annual speech competition I usually compete in is coming up soon. Topics to choose from are;

Reality TV
Australian Made
The Other Side
Winning Ways
Rich And Poor
The Funny Side
The Last Laugh
Mind Games

I'm not sure which to do. I could do a humorous speech on Winning Ways, and I loathe most Reality TV so I could probably speak quite passionately on that topic, but I'm really not sure. I've competed twice in the past - last year I was too ill on the day. 2000, I did a humorous piece about Surviving School, with which I nearly won (and when I performed it for the grade, had them in stitches). 2001, I did a serious piece on why the Gold Coast needed a tramway and got knocked out in the semi-finals (considering I was an emotional wreck at the time, I performed very below standard and nearly didn't go). Personally, I prefer presenting entertaining, humorous pieces because the audience enjoys them, so I may go for something funny along the lines of Winning Ways.

"How to win, using the winning ways of the experts. The three primary methods are cheating, bribery, and fixing the results ..."

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