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[18 June 2008|02:53 am]
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OK, I don't normally do surveyish things. I don't like them. They're just one step down from posting quiz results. But here's one that I think has some validity. I've been so dodgy with updates lately, especially updates about anything tangible. So this survey seems like a quick, effective, and most importantly, downright lazy way for me to bring people up to speed. And it seems the rest of you have all been doing this anyway, so I guess I'll join in on the fun.

1. First Name: André.

2. Age: 21.

3. Location: Melbourne, Victoria. I lived on the Kapiti Coast of New Zealand from January 1987 to October 1997, then the Gold Coast, Queensland until February 2006, Brisbane, Queensland until January 2007, and Melbourne since. I have absolutely no intention of going anywhere any time soon, and the only place I can ever really see myself moving to is back to New Zealand, say somewhere in the Greater Wellington or Wairarapa region. Featherston is quite attractive, or of course my beloved Kapiti Coast hometown of Raumati Beach. As of 30 June this year, I will have lived over half my life in Australia. I am not happy about this fact. Maybe I'll get completely sloshed and hope that when I wake up, I find myself on a flight back to Wellington

4. Occupation: Student. I'm in my third and final year of undergrad study for the Bachelor of Arts right now, intending to do my Honours year next year before proceeding to postgrad and hopefully a career in academia.

5. Partner: My library of books and music. It doesn't care if I spend a lot of time in other libraries. Seriously, I simply cannot be bothered with all the stupidity and bullshit of relationships. I have better things to do with my life. Maybe I'll stumble into one at some point down the track, but it sure won't be at my own instigation.

6. Kids: God help us all if I ever reproduce.

7. Brothers/Sisters: None. Well, I refer to the sons of my mother's partner as stepbrothers for conversational ease, because that's much easier than "the sons of my mother's partner", but I don't actually think of them as stepbrothers. Especially since they aren't, due to Mum and Alan not actually being married.

8. Pets: Six zebrafish. They ... swim and stuff. And since I like the little guys and don't want them to die, they give me a good excuse to not go on lengthy holidays. Though this may be a problem once I finally get together a group to go on a lengthy jaunt around New Zealand. Hoping to maybe put something together for summer later this year/early next.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:

- University, of course. Currently drowning under end of semester work, but in five days everything will be done and I can relax for winter holidays. I have one essay due on the 20th, another any time between the 20th and the 24th, and an exam on the 23rd. Bonnie from Interference conveniently arrives in Melbourne for a holiday on the 23rd, so an Interference gathering for dinner and drinks would be a quite welcome way to forget about this tiring semester.

- My mother's health, which was of such considerable concern a few months ago, seems fairly stable at the moment. It is not the best and it never will be, but right now she seems much better than she was and I'm accordingly a bit more relaxed about things. At the moment, it seems like there's just this slow process of consultations with specialists and occasional outpatient surgery.

- As stated in my last entry, I'm now officially legally blind. Unlike most people, I am happy about this, since my vision hasn't actually changed; it's just been acknowledged for what it is.

- My Mac won't connect with the Internet and I haven't gotten around to fixing it. Since I listen to music on it, this means I haven't been updating last.fm for months; I have been doing this dedicatedly since 2005, so it feels bloody weird not to be. I hope to fix it over the holidays. Having it out of action has rather cramped my studying style too, since I prefer to write essays on the Windows with all my research up on the Mac. I am very, very seriously considering buying a laptop as I can see it coming in increasingly useful for my academic work. It would have made things a lot quicker with regards to my Royal Historical Society work!

- After going through a process of intellectual enquiry, I suppose I should consider myself more atheist than agnostic. I'd write more about this, but I feel like it would come across as too preachy, too "hurrr God almost certainly don't exist you fools", and less "here's what I'm thinking at the moment; let's explore it a little", so I won't force it.

10. Where and for what did you go to university?: (Yes, I fixed this question. The phrasing was poor and I graduated school in 2004. I do not go to school. I go to university. Goddamn Americans.) I go to the University of Melbourne. I did my first year at the University of Queensland. Both are quality institutions, though Melbourne is superior. I actually began as an International Relations and History major, with IR my primary focus and History simply to provide context and background. As it turned out, I found myself much more attracted to History, so that is now my primary focus. New Zealand's history is my specialty. I am also completing a Political Science major, but only because I am so close to having the points for one that I might as well. Had I made my decision to focus on History prior to semester two last year rather than after it, I would've double-majored in History and ditched PolSci entirely.

11. Parents?: My mother is the most important person to me and I wish she did not live interstate. I think my father and I benefit from having the Tasman Sea between us. I think the problem is that we're simply too similar in all the wrong ways, so we inevitably clash. I regret that we are not closer and I imagine he does too, but we both have the kind of sufficiently distant personalities that we won't act. Or even say anything about it to each other.

12. Grandparents?: Grandpa, my paternal grandfather, died in February. I still have not yet accepted that he is dead. Partly because I have not been back to New Zealand, so I didn't go to the funeral, haven't been to his grave, and haven't visited my grandparents' place to find just Grandma there. I still expect him to be there telling lame jokes, pottering about in the garden with his chrysanthemums, and sharing random stories. As for my maternal grandparents, Nan is probably the person I'm closest to after my mother, and I also wish she lived in Victoria rather than Queensland. Grandad is still in New Zealand and I wish I got to see him more than I do. We've always gotten on very well, even if his own children don't quite view him with the fondness that I do.

13. Who are some of your closest friends?: Hard question to answer. This year has been a process of reconstructing my friendships. At the moment, I would say I have four circles. Firstly, the high school/Queensland circle, most of whom have unfortunately drifted away due to faults both mine and theirs, though I am still in touch with Jamie regularly and would consider him to probably be my best friend. Secondly, the Melburnian Interferencers circle, who are cool and diverse people. Thirdly, the albino/shit eyesight group, especially my fellow albino railfan, Kat. And fourthly my close online friends, such as numerous people on my friends list and people like Lauren and Holly who are a couple of my longest and closest friends. Despite this impression of lots of friends, all four circles are very small, half of them don't live in Melbourne, and since I am a very distant person, I'm not sure whether any more than 3 or 4 of these people should be considered anything approaching close by the standards of most people. Makes me feel a bit lost, as I've always been somebody to have one especially close friend in my life, be they Sean (1999-2001), Sam (2000-04), or Kate (2004-07). If Jamie lived in Melbourne instead of Toowoomba, I don't doubt he'd fulfill that role, but ah well. Probably the same applies to Sam, though his present religiosity is a little much for me sometimes.
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Hmm, wonder what day it is today! [25 December 2007|01:03 pm]
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[Current Music |'Boughs of Holly' by Trans-Siberian Orchestra]

Merry Christmas and a Happy Festivus, everybody!

I hope all of you are having a great Christmas Day, or for those of you behind the times and living in the past, I hope you're having a nice Christmas Eve and have everything ready for tomorrow. I've had a pretty lazy Christmas morning; just a quiet breakfast with close family. I got to have my traditional cornflakes with blueberries, so I'm happy. We're having a late lunch in the afternoon and I'm currently just taking a break from helping with the cooking while Mum and Alan pay a brief visit to some of Alan's family. I spoke to Grandma and Grandpa a short while ago and they both sounded good; Grandpa sounded remarkably healthy despite his condition, though his prognosis is poor. I'm pleasantly stunned to learn that the card I sent them on the 20th somehow made it there yesterday! Even at the best of times, it tends to take a week for anything to get across the Tasman, so a delivery time of four days at the height of Christmas strikes me as astonishing.

We've only exchanged a few presents thus far as we normally do the main present-giving before eating the day's main meal, but one present I've already received is sensational. Mum and Alan finally managed to track down the t-shirt upon which my New Zealand icon that I'm using for this entry is based. I saw someone wearing it years ago at a one day cricket international at the 'Gabba in Brisbane but have never been able to find it. Apparently some Kiwis are brave enough to sell this sort of stuff at Carrara markets on the Gold Coast here in Australia - what champions! It reads "I support two teams, the All Blacks and whoever is playing the Wallabies". This is the first time I have worn a Kiwi sporting shirt since that immensely depressing quarter-final loss in the World Cup in October; previously, I wore one of my Kiwi sporting shirts at least once a week! I think this t-shirt has to claim the title of best that I own.

What is really weird is that for the first time in approximately two years, I am updating from my old bedroom. This is where I wrote the vast bulk of my LJ entries. It's now my mother's room, with all of her sewing spread throughout the place and her computer in the corner where my printer and stereo used to reside. This used to be a pool room before I moved in and the pool table is still in the centre; clearly putting it to every use other than playing pool runs in the family, as it used to be covered in all my junk and is now lost underneath my mother's sewing! Suddenly I feel not so bad about how disorganised this place inadvertently became during my time here!

By some miracle, it's not overwhelmingly hot or humid in Queensland at the moment, though I am still jealous of Melbourne's 23 and fine. It is amazing just how fast the Gold Coast is growing; I think that it has changed more in the two years since I left than my Kiwi hometown has changed since I left in 1997 (well Raumati Beach anyway; parts of Paraparaumu border on unrecognisable). I'm greatly looking forward to catching up with my friends over the next few days; a couple I saw a year ago, but some people I haven't seen since the end of high school in 2004. It will be interesting to see how much they have changed; I doubt it will shock anyone that I am even more nerdy than before. In my usual nerdy fashion, I'm sure hoping some of those presents under the Christmas tree are books. I got through over 100 pages of Crime And Punishment on the plane yesterday despite sleeping half the way, and have now nearly finished it.

Damn I wish I had someone to play cricket with today.
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Thoughts covering the 24th to 26th of December period. [26 December 2006|10:03 pm]
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Yesterday, I had a fair bit I wished to say but no desire to really write much. Today, I feel like writing but can't recall much of what I want to say. Typical. Well, let's see where this goes.

Impressions of Christmas this year. )

The Boxing Day test. )

And while I didn't want to, it seems I can't help but chime in on the stupid annual Christmas debates. )

I guess I actually had more to say than I realised. Well, that's about it for today, except to say that I feel bad for not doing my annual entry on the 24th in memory of the victims of the Tangiwai disaster on 24 December 1953 (which my grandfather survived and two uncles did not) and other New Zealand railway disasters, such as the 1943 Hyde disaster in which I lost four relatives. I also lost a relative in a dreadful railway accident in the UK in 1952, so I guess that given this unpleasant family history with trains, it's a little perplexing why I'm a railfan. I guess I was born late enough to not have my attitudes towards rail transport adversely affected by the disasters, but early enough to still be strongly emotionally affected by the memory of them. To this day, my grandfather has not ridden a train since Tangiwai. Anyway, although it's a couple of days late, there's my annual thoughts and reflections on the disaster. RIP Douglas and John.
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[1 December 2006|10:52 pm]
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Yikes, it's December already. Where has this year gone? I feel rather bad because I'm still yet to catch up on half the stuff that's happened since I spent the last few weeks travelling around. I thought I would have done so in the last few days but I haven't. So if you're waiting for a reply to anything, I promise that it is indeed coming! I'm just behind schedule.

Speaking of being behind schedule, I need to kick into gear with a couple of other things too to avoid being (too far) behind. Firstly, since it's December, I better accept the reality that Christmas is fast approaching. I don't enjoy Christmas any more. It has lost its magic, I have no-one to play cricket with on Christmas or Boxing Day afternoon, and my family's so split up both by divorces and distance that I no longer really know who to spend the day with or why. I guess I'll probably end up going down to the Gold Coast on Christmas Day but I don't really feel like it. I should also really decide if I'm going to bother with a tree or not, as 13 December will probably be here before I know it. People, Christmas trees go up twelve days before Christmas and come down twelve days after. None of this "oh, let's put the tree up one or two months in advance" nonsense that is becoming more and more common. Well, if you're American, you have an excuse, as it can be seen as seguing from Thanksgiving into the Christmas season, but otherwise? I say leave it to 13 December.

Secondly, I really need to get on top of the article I'm writing for the Political Science department's journal; if I wish to make the January edition, I need to have a submission ready in the next couple of weeks. I'm just experiencing writer's block. I wish to focus on the flaws of realism and implications of the security dilemma, with specific reference to crises in the Middle East, and I also wish to involve my pacific tendencies as I feel pacifism is rather under-treated. I'm surprised at the lack of pacifist literature in UQ's library. Maybe I'm just not looking hard enough, but there doesn't seem to be much there, especially not much recent theoretical work. Well, there's always online journals, which I should have checked already but I haven't.

And I think that's about it for now. Have a good one, folks!
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[9 April 2006|06:38 pm]
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[Current Music |'I'm But A Wave To ...' by Cynic]

Well, I'm back from New Zealand. Talk about a flying visit. Despite the fact I haven't been there in three years, most things were so incredibly familiar. I felt like I had never left Raumati Beach. Sure, some of the shops had changed, but at the end of the day, most things felt just like they always have. The weather was absolutely wonderful - a nice, strong northerly greeted me, and most of the time, the sun was shining (contrary to all Wellington stereotypes). Wellington is a truly beautiful city when the sun is out. It's a city you both love and hate - it's incredibly beautiful, with its bays and hills (mountains to Australians, I'm sure), but my goodness, it isn't built sensibly at all. The geographical location is not exactly conducive to good city design in the first place, and I'd forgotten just how bloody narrow Wellington's streets really are. Not to mention the maze of one way streets. But it's still such a fantastic city. I drove around the bays with my Grandad and uncle, and that was good fun. I hadn't seen either of them in three years either, so it was great to catch up.

I spent most of the time with my father's side of the family (the aforementioned Grandad and uncle are my only maternal relatives that I saw this time around, though all my other close relatives on Mum's side live in Australia nowadays and the more distant ones don't live around Wellington to my knowledge). It's the first time we've had the entire side of the family together in ... years. Maybe the first time in over a decade? I'm not sure. All of my memories seem to have someone missing. Of course, this time around, Uncle Innes was missing due to divorce, so I don't know if he even counts any more. I always liked him, though. And his kids - my only close relatives from my generation - sure have grown. Last time I saw them was in the late nineties when they were half my size. Now they're both taller than me. Those who know me should get a laugh from knowing that I'm still one of the tallest in my family, though. I think out of the last three generations of my family, only four people (out of fourteen) can claim to be taller than me. I can already hear the laughter of the people who know me/mock my height/call me a hobbit.

I'll probably have more things to say over the coming days, but for now, I think I will go and cook dinner. It was nice not having to worry about cooking for a couple of days. I sure missed my music, though. A discman can only do so much. I'm currently enjoying being re-united with my library of awesome music. When Dad put the radio on in the car, the selection of music was simply appalling. Can I just say that the more I hear of The White Stripes, the more I come to realise people who like them are completely and utterly mad and need their hearing checked? The same applies to fans of rap. Or to fans of anything that Wellington's 91ZM plays, for that matter. Utter rubbish, the whole bloody lot of it.
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