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Hmm, wonder what day it is today! [25 December 2007|01:03 pm]
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[Current Music |'Boughs of Holly' by Trans-Siberian Orchestra]

Merry Christmas and a Happy Festivus, everybody!

I hope all of you are having a great Christmas Day, or for those of you behind the times and living in the past, I hope you're having a nice Christmas Eve and have everything ready for tomorrow. I've had a pretty lazy Christmas morning; just a quiet breakfast with close family. I got to have my traditional cornflakes with blueberries, so I'm happy. We're having a late lunch in the afternoon and I'm currently just taking a break from helping with the cooking while Mum and Alan pay a brief visit to some of Alan's family. I spoke to Grandma and Grandpa a short while ago and they both sounded good; Grandpa sounded remarkably healthy despite his condition, though his prognosis is poor. I'm pleasantly stunned to learn that the card I sent them on the 20th somehow made it there yesterday! Even at the best of times, it tends to take a week for anything to get across the Tasman, so a delivery time of four days at the height of Christmas strikes me as astonishing.

We've only exchanged a few presents thus far as we normally do the main present-giving before eating the day's main meal, but one present I've already received is sensational. Mum and Alan finally managed to track down the t-shirt upon which my New Zealand icon that I'm using for this entry is based. I saw someone wearing it years ago at a one day cricket international at the 'Gabba in Brisbane but have never been able to find it. Apparently some Kiwis are brave enough to sell this sort of stuff at Carrara markets on the Gold Coast here in Australia - what champions! It reads "I support two teams, the All Blacks and whoever is playing the Wallabies". This is the first time I have worn a Kiwi sporting shirt since that immensely depressing quarter-final loss in the World Cup in October; previously, I wore one of my Kiwi sporting shirts at least once a week! I think this t-shirt has to claim the title of best that I own.

What is really weird is that for the first time in approximately two years, I am updating from my old bedroom. This is where I wrote the vast bulk of my LJ entries. It's now my mother's room, with all of her sewing spread throughout the place and her computer in the corner where my printer and stereo used to reside. This used to be a pool room before I moved in and the pool table is still in the centre; clearly putting it to every use other than playing pool runs in the family, as it used to be covered in all my junk and is now lost underneath my mother's sewing! Suddenly I feel not so bad about how disorganised this place inadvertently became during my time here!

By some miracle, it's not overwhelmingly hot or humid in Queensland at the moment, though I am still jealous of Melbourne's 23 and fine. It is amazing just how fast the Gold Coast is growing; I think that it has changed more in the two years since I left than my Kiwi hometown has changed since I left in 1997 (well Raumati Beach anyway; parts of Paraparaumu border on unrecognisable). I'm greatly looking forward to catching up with my friends over the next few days; a couple I saw a year ago, but some people I haven't seen since the end of high school in 2004. It will be interesting to see how much they have changed; I doubt it will shock anyone that I am even more nerdy than before. In my usual nerdy fashion, I'm sure hoping some of those presents under the Christmas tree are books. I got through over 100 pages of Crime And Punishment on the plane yesterday despite sleeping half the way, and have now nearly finished it.

Damn I wish I had someone to play cricket with today.
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[23 December 2007|09:38 pm]
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[Current Music |'Fadeaway' by Porcupine Tree]

Well, I'm heading off to the Gold Coast tomorrow afternoon. It's the first time I've been back to Queensland since I left in January. It will be good to catch up with the family, though I'm not at all looking forward to the weather. While Melbourne should have a comfortably cool 23 degree Christmas, the Gold Coast is looking at 26; now, that might not sound like a big difference, but I am convinced that simply due to its humidity, 25 degrees on the Gold Coast actually feels hotter than a 30 degree Melbourne day. Ah well, it'll be worth it to have some company at Christmas. I will have Internet access on the Gold Coast, so that's good. Before I go, though, I will make my annual Tangiwai disaster entry tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, I can't say I'm looking forward to fighting the crowds in the city on the way to the airport. My tram runs two blocks from Spencer Street Station, which is where I catch the bus to the airport, so I'll either have to walk there and hope the footpath isn't too crowded or force my way onto a packed Bourke Street tram during the lunch hour with my suitcase. Woohoo.

I really do hate flying. The airport is so incredibly out of my way and the over-the-top security measures to combat the non-existent terrorist threat are just plain irritating. I'm more willing to fly in New Zealand simply because you do not have to pass through any security checkpoints whatsoever for domestic flights; it's delightful. I really wish the train were a viable option, but unless I were willing to kill two entire days and pay for a night in Sydney, it's out of the question as there are no direct Melbourne to Brisbane trains. I hope that the Inland Railway is built soon and a passenger service is offered, as that would be absolutely fantastic.

This evening, I purchased a ticket to see Explosions In The Sky live, with Eluvium as the support act. I like a fair bit of their studio material and I hear they do an excellent live show, so I said "what the hell, who cares that I don't know anyone who wants to go?" and bought myself a ticket. So now I've got two concerts coming up next year, Dream Theater on 29 January and EITS on 16 February. This year, one of my big regrets is that I missed concerts I wanted to see because I had nobody to go with. I accordingly failed to see Isis, Pelican, and Arcturus. The Arcturus one particularly hurts. At the start of the gig, ICS Vortex walked on stage and announced "Welcome to the last Arcturus gig. Ever." I think I shall now make a point of going to shows even if I'm by myself, as I do not want that to happen again, or for a band to simply not return to Australia. We've been lucky the last few years, with the improvement in the dollar's value, but who knows how long that will last and if it returns to its 2000-02 level, the amount of tours will be sure to decline. I love live music and I don't want to have a year as lean as this year, with a meagre two gigs: Crowded House and Muse - funnily enough, within a week of each other.

On a completely different topic, I'd just like to say: who gives a shit that Tony Blair's converted from Anglicanism to Catholicism? Certainly not me, as his religion is his own private matter, and I simply cannot fathom why it was headline news here in Australia tonight. I can possibly imagine it being a sort of time waster in England, a kind of brief "former Prime Minister becomes Catholic" snippet to fill a gap in a news bulletin. But it has no impact upon, well, anyone else really and has no significance for Australia at all. Even SBS fell victim to covering this non-story. Bah. Enough of that, though.

Well, I hope all of you have a relaxing and enjoyable Christmas break. Those of you in the Southern Hemisphere, I wish you sunshine and cricket, just the way it should be. Those of you in the Northern Hemisphere, I also wish you sunshine and cricket, the former because we need your snow in liquid form down here as the drought's getting pretty unpleasant and the latter because most of you are in the US, which suffers significantly from a lack of the gentleman's game. Have a good one, folks!
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[21 December 2007|05:29 pm]
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[Current Music |'Souvenirs D'un Autre Monde' by Alcest]

So I am apparently the voice of pessimism at Christmas. It's been a long time since I ever really got into the season. Probably when I was 12 or 13. It no longer feels like a special time of year, and it doesn't help that I lack anybody to play cricket with. It's just not Christmas if you don't go outside in the afternoon, have a barbecue, and play some backyard cricket. Here, I don't even have a tree; I supposedly have a miniature tree for my coffee table somewhere, but I sure can't find it and I've looked high and low. Perhaps I should've made some crepe paper chains. Yesterday, I posted - a bit late - five Christmas cards. I've never sent so many in my life. It felt excessive. I'm sure that for some of you, though, sending out five cards would be a monumentally low figure. But my close friends and I have a standing rule that we don't give each other anything, going back to when Sam and I were 14; his birthday is three days before mine, so I gave him $20 and got the very same note back three days later. I am completely incompetent at buying presents anyway, and this lack of present-giving seems to extend to cards. I'm also completely incompetent at writing worthwhile messages in cards, so this is a great thing from my perspective. Unfortunately, certain family members feel a bit unloved if I don't send them anything. That said, two of the cards I sent to my Mum and Nan on the Gold Coast as a bit of a joke, to see if they beat me there. I'm flying up on Christmas Eve.

I must admit to being considerably amused by the predictable furore that eminates mainly from the US every year over "Merry Christmas" vs "Happy Holidays" and some supposed "War on Christmas" that Christians with a persecution complex have invented in their minds. You know, when you have an overwhelming statistical majority, over 80% of the population, then your cries of "persecution" just sound like you have no idea what genuine persecution is. I want some of these irritating fundie extremists to spend a month in Saudi Arabia just so they can experience a bit of real persecution firsthand. For the time being, I think this animated diagram is fitting:



I suppose some people enjoy storms in teacups. I, for the record, say "Merry Christmas" because that's the name of the bloody holiday. It has the religious significance of "Happy Australia Day". That said, I have grown up with Christmas being essentially devoid of religious significance or meaning. I remember when I first realised that "Christmas" referred to Jesus Christ; after all, it's pronounced more like "Chrissmas", so the connection was not immediately obvious even though I knew the spelling. In my childhood naivety, I thought the carols mentioning Jesus were sung just because it was one of the things that happened at that time of year, just like how Northern Hemisphere carols mention snow, and the day itself was simply a time of peacefulness, generosity, and family. I don't think I really realised it had any inherent religious significance until I was six and I learnt a couple of my cousins were going to church. I thought that was kind of odd because it wasn't a Sunday! Certainly in the social context within which I grew up, Christmas had evolved prior to my birth from a religious holiday into a secular and inclusive one. I just wish I still felt the magic that I remember it had when I was younger. Now I just grumble about having to find people presents when I don't know what the recipient would like and I haven't much money to buy anything good, or having to figure out what to write in a card, or having to hang out with family I don't like while eating food that doesn't appeal to me and listening to music that's stuck in a mundane timewarp.

Oh well. That's my Christmas whine and I'll say no more (except in response to any direct replies on the topic, of course). I am looking forward to going to the Gold Coast and seeing family I haven't seen for 6+ months. I'm really looking forward to my mother's delicious fruit mince pies. Alan also makes fantastic turkey; I normally don't like turkey as it's too frequently dry like cardboard, but his isn't. Perhaps I can convince him to do duck next year, though. I'm also kinda proud of how I found my mother a present she probably wouldn't expect at all; it's just a book but the fact I managed to find something without any prompting or assistance is truly remarkable. I'm the worst present-buyer you'll ever meet, I assure you of that. I walk into a bookshop (because books win as presents), gravitate towards the history, politics, and theology sections, and then stand there thinking "but nobody else in my family would like any of this! And I don't know where to find books they would like. Oh, I give up. But before I go, let's see if they have any Søren Kierkegaard or G. K. Chesterton here!" Ah well, at least this time around I had a good discount voucher, so I bought Mum's present and some books for myself, including Les Miserables by Victor Hugo and War And Peace by Leo Tolstoy, both of which I have been meaning to acquire for bloody forever. At the moment, I am currently reading Fyodor Dostoevsky's Crime And Punishment, and it is truly nothing short of brilliant. Dostoevsky thoroughly deserves the reputation he has. I cannot decide whether to proceed onto either one of my recent purchases or Dostoevsky's The Brothers Karamazov once I am done. Perhaps I shall read something completely different instead, as a kind of interlude.

Well, this became much longer than I intended. I shall continue tomorrow, for the sake of brevity. Have a good longest/shortest day of the year, depending on where you live!
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Thoughts covering the 24th to 26th of December period. [26 December 2006|10:03 pm]
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[Current Music |'Gospel According To IEM' by Incredible Expanding Mindfuck]

Yesterday, I had a fair bit I wished to say but no desire to really write much. Today, I feel like writing but can't recall much of what I want to say. Typical. Well, let's see where this goes.

Impressions of Christmas this year. )

The Boxing Day test. )

And while I didn't want to, it seems I can't help but chime in on the stupid annual Christmas debates. )

I guess I actually had more to say than I realised. Well, that's about it for today, except to say that I feel bad for not doing my annual entry on the 24th in memory of the victims of the Tangiwai disaster on 24 December 1953 (which my grandfather survived and two uncles did not) and other New Zealand railway disasters, such as the 1943 Hyde disaster in which I lost four relatives. I also lost a relative in a dreadful railway accident in the UK in 1952, so I guess that given this unpleasant family history with trains, it's a little perplexing why I'm a railfan. I guess I was born late enough to not have my attitudes towards rail transport adversely affected by the disasters, but early enough to still be strongly emotionally affected by the memory of them. To this day, my grandfather has not ridden a train since Tangiwai. Anyway, although it's a couple of days late, there's my annual thoughts and reflections on the disaster. RIP Douglas and John.
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You know what this entry's going to be about. [25 December 2006|11:49 pm]
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[Current Music |'Boughs Of Holly' by Trans-Siberian Orchestra]

I can't decide whether I want to wish all of you a merry Christmas or a merry Festivus, so I'll settle for a mix: Merry Festimas!

Today's been an alright day, and I'll probably write more tomorrow as I don't feel particularly in the mood to write extensively now. It's definitely been one of our coolest Christmases in a while after a run of stinkers - in fact, all of December's been abnormally cooler than usual, which makes a nice change. Yes, I realise that sounds demented to those of you in the Northern Hemisphere. The remarkable thing is that down in the township of Mount Buller in Victoria, they actually had a white Christmas! There is something seriously wrong about having a white Christmas in the Southern Hemisphere, but Mount Buller certainly needed it after the dreadful bushfires that have been raging in that part of the state.

I really don't feel like it's been Christmas at all, to be honest. Well, at least there were fruit mince pies to eat, Christmas carols I actually enjoy due to the prog rock goodness of Trans-Siberian Orchestra, and the first day of the Boxing Day test is obviously tomorrow even if England's abysmal performances in losing the first three of five games in the Ashes has renderred my favourite Christmas tradition a dead rubber. Thanks, guys.

Have a good one, folks.
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[1 December 2006|10:52 pm]
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[Current Music |'The Truth Within' by Orphaned Land]

Yikes, it's December already. Where has this year gone? I feel rather bad because I'm still yet to catch up on half the stuff that's happened since I spent the last few weeks travelling around. I thought I would have done so in the last few days but I haven't. So if you're waiting for a reply to anything, I promise that it is indeed coming! I'm just behind schedule.

Speaking of being behind schedule, I need to kick into gear with a couple of other things too to avoid being (too far) behind. Firstly, since it's December, I better accept the reality that Christmas is fast approaching. I don't enjoy Christmas any more. It has lost its magic, I have no-one to play cricket with on Christmas or Boxing Day afternoon, and my family's so split up both by divorces and distance that I no longer really know who to spend the day with or why. I guess I'll probably end up going down to the Gold Coast on Christmas Day but I don't really feel like it. I should also really decide if I'm going to bother with a tree or not, as 13 December will probably be here before I know it. People, Christmas trees go up twelve days before Christmas and come down twelve days after. None of this "oh, let's put the tree up one or two months in advance" nonsense that is becoming more and more common. Well, if you're American, you have an excuse, as it can be seen as seguing from Thanksgiving into the Christmas season, but otherwise? I say leave it to 13 December.

Secondly, I really need to get on top of the article I'm writing for the Political Science department's journal; if I wish to make the January edition, I need to have a submission ready in the next couple of weeks. I'm just experiencing writer's block. I wish to focus on the flaws of realism and implications of the security dilemma, with specific reference to crises in the Middle East, and I also wish to involve my pacific tendencies as I feel pacifism is rather under-treated. I'm surprised at the lack of pacifist literature in UQ's library. Maybe I'm just not looking hard enough, but there doesn't seem to be much there, especially not much recent theoretical work. Well, there's always online journals, which I should have checked already but I haven't.

And I think that's about it for now. Have a good one, folks!
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[26 December 2005|09:45 pm]
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[Current Music |'Make Sense Of It' by Split Enz]

Boxing Day really should be renamed Cricket And Post-Christmas Sales Day, because those are its only two reasons for even existing, as far as I see it.

Though now I'm starting to reflect on what happened this day a year ago. How quickly the world forgets. Once the media frenzy dies down and something new comes along, we just change our focus, even though the people affected by the initial event are still in a desperate situation and certainly not ready to be ignored.

If you aren't sure, I am of course referring to the Boxing Day tsunami that devastated multiple nations across Asia and even affected Africa. What a horrific day that was, even for those of us sitting in our comfortable homes, watching footage on TV. The images on the news were truly some of the most terrible that I've seen in my life.

Christmas for me is tied with tragedy, whether it's Tangiwai or the Boxing Day tsunami or the images of fatal car crashes on Christmas Eve that upset me so much when I was little. It shouldn't be that way at all. It's rather hard to have innocent, untarnished joy, it seems.
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[25 December 2005|09:52 pm]
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[Current Music |'Christmas (Baby, Please Come Home)' by U2]

Merry Christmas, everybody. I'd like to take this chance to thank both [info]achtung_meggie and [info]khanada for the cards they sent. They made me smile when I opened them earlier today.

What a day of emotional highs and lows. The middle of the day was a quite unexpected high, though now I'm in the midst of a low. There's only one thing in this entire world that I really wanted. But that's enough vagueness.

I hope all of you had great days without any kind of lows. Christmas should be such a happy time. At least it's brought me even more reading material to add to my ever-expanding library.
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[19 December 2005|10:07 pm]
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[Current Music |'North By North' by The Bats]

Christmas is drawing ever closer - unfortunately, as I am hopelessly unprepared for it in the gifts department - and I remain without plans. Christmas has lately turned into a day where I seek to avoid all unnecessary human contact just to maintain my sanity. My stepfather's family always has a huge gathering, and there's just no way they are going to become any kind of 'new' or 'adopted' family for me. They have the kind of gathering where there's a tonne of food, a tonne of booze, and it runs way too late into the night for me, which is especially tedious considering the fact it also begins way too early in the day. I know almost no-one there and when I did show up two Christmases ago, I just lingered on the fringe and was occasionally noticed by people who, upon speaking with me, clearly had nothing in common with me. If there's one thing I truly hate, it is big social gatherings full of people I do not know, probably do not want to know, and definitely do not need to know. Thorough waste of my time, as far as I'm concerned. I have no burning desire within me to meet people with whom I share nothing in common and likely will rarely - or never - see again in my life.

Last year, I managed to escape to a delightful Italian lunch with my grandmother, but she's in New Zealand this year so that avenue is closed to me. I am hoping my lack of plans will mean that I will just stay at home and that no-one will try to include me in this needlessly large gathering. Maybe in the next few days, I will come up with some brilliant excuse to justify my failure to appear at anything. This is going to be the great thing about living in Brisbane and subsequently Melbourne - not only will I have the obvious justification of distance to excuse myself from any gatherings here that I don't want to attend, but I also won't be forced by anyone else to celebrate Christmas in a manner not of my choosing. Hopefully, anyway. Personally, I do not associate exorbitantly large gatherings fuelled by alcohol with Christmas. Give me a quiet day with people who are close to me, and make sure there's afternoon cricket.

Maybe, if I'm lucky enough to be left alone on Christmas afternoon, I will head outside and set up the wickets and practice my bowling. Sad to be on my lonesome, true, but my bowling is rusty considering the fact I've barely played any cricket since January 2003. That's when I had a lump removed from my back, and for the rest of the summer holidays, I couldn't play as my bowling action would have probably ripped out the stitches. I only played a little bit of cricket in summer 2003-2004, nothing in summer 2004-2005, and then I finally got a game when I taught the Franklin folk how to play back in June. That revealed just how hopelessly out of practice I was - if I'd been bowling to people who actually played cricket regularly, I would've been smashed all over the park. This certainly needs to be rectified. I've bowled an ex-Queensland state representative before (and got $20 for my troubles); I should practice a bit so my bowling regains that standard of respectability.
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Christmas is fast approaching. [15 December 2005|10:10 pm]
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[Current Music |'Cloudy Now' by Blackfield]

In recent years, I have come to quite dislike Christmastime. It's not just that there's a lack of a Christmasy feeling - I can't put my finger on what makes it feel like Christmas, but whatever it is, it's been absent for a few years. It's also the family obligation, the commitments, and the demands. It feels so painfully fake. I'd rather spend the day with people whose company I enjoy rather than people whose only justification for desiring my company is that they're family in some way or another, and the expectation of presents grates on my nerves. I'm shocking at buying presents - you need to write me out a list that's very clear and precise, and then point me in the right direction and hope for the best. I'm incompetent even with cards and avoid doing them. I appreciate every one that I get but they're not something I give out myself.

Really, I look forward to the day when I can celebrate Christmas as I desire. Get some good food - a barbecue, pizza, huge tubs of ice cream, I'm not particularly fussy - and head out and play cricket. Because that's what Christmas Day is all about, once you get the presents and breakfast/lunch out of the way: cricket. Well, OK, that's not what Christmas is 'all about' in the actual justification for the day, but you should get what I mean. Christmas afternoon, to me, should feature a good, fun game of cricket in the backyard or down at the park.

And then, of course, there's the Boxing Day test. I remember the last time I was in New Zealand for Christmas - 2000, probably - my father and I headed down to the Basin Reserve in Wellington for the Boxing Day test. I believe we were playing Zimbabwe. I love catching cricket at the Basin and the atmosphere was great, despite the guy behind us who insisted on annoyingly yelling "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaastle" at Nathan Astle until my father turned around and told him in no uncertain terms to "shut the fuck up". There were some kids playing their own game of cricket in the stands and to the best of my memory, Wellington turned on this gloriously sunny day quite unlike what you actually expect in the city known better for its delightfullly chilly winds and lovely rain. Now, that was a good day.

I can't even begin to imagine Christmas without cricket - and the barbecue, my mother's fruit mince pies, and a nice sunny day are pretty much Christmas staples too. Christmas just wouldn't be right without cricket, whether it's the backyard variety or sitting down the next day to watch the Boxing Day test. I suppose if it's winter, you could play rugby, but that just seems wrong on so many levels. Rucks and mauls aren't exactly Christmasy to me.

Of course, this year's Christmas isn't exactly going to go how I'd like it. Maybe another year, eh?
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Political correctness can be thoroughly annoying. [9 December 2005|10:13 pm]
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[Current Music |'I Hope I Never' by Spilt Enz]

I am becoming extremely tired of this PC "let's not risk offending anyone" nonsense with regards to the whole debate of replacing "Merry Christmas" with "Happy Holidays". I honestly haven't noticed this to be much of an issue in Australia or New Zealand, but I've sure seen the argument enough online for it to be irking me. Now, of course, multiple cultures are celebrating important occasions around this time of year, but if you live in a Western country like I do, take a look at your calendar and notice the fact that the public holiday is Christmas. I place "Merry Christmas" on the same level as "Happy New Year" or "I hope you have a fun Australia Day". It's just a damn greeting related to the public holiday; it isn't some endorsement of one religion or culture over another. If you're offended because someone, in wishing you a merry time on 25 December, used the name of the official public holiday they hope you will enjoy, you have some issues.

Really, this is completely ridiculous. I don't see anyone complaining about positive Australia Day wishes and considering them exclusionary and offensive, even though they blatantly ignore the fact that Waitangi Day falls during the same fortnight and a sizeable minority of New Zealanders live in Australia. I'm sure every single day contains some significance in one culture if you look hard enough, but let's not take things to extremes, people. There's nothing wrong with acknowledging official public holidays without mentioning other important occasions that aren't official holidays.
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